As 2009 draws to a close, I wanted to reflect on some memorable moments during the year. 2009 was a year of changes for our family. My dad passed away in 2008, but I became less numb in 09'. We three girls have really bonded and worked well together this year. We have learned to help one another and pitch in without too much fuss or problems. Paige has really matured in so many ways. I feel so very sad for the losses that she has had in her young life. Let's face it, loss is a big part of adoption. She lost her biological parents, lost the life she knew with her foster family, lost her cultural ties and then...then the loss of my dad. I write this with tears streaming down my face. I know she is loved beyond comprehension, but it makes my heart tear apart when I see her friends with their dads. Loss. It hurts. We grow from it. We survive. We are stronger because of it. It has fortunately brought us closer to God.
2009 proved to be the year that I became closer to Him. I feel like I have a purpose. I didn't before 2009. I just found myself meandoring through life. Always trying to be the best person that I could be, but yet, no goal in sight. I now feel like my purpose is to live a life filled with teaching Paige and my students about being the best they can be. Being a good friend, daughter and sister is at the TOP of my list for 2010. Not just walking the walk, but talking the talk.
2009 brought my precious, precious brother a new life partner. That makes this sister happier than anyone can imagine. You see, Greg is 5 years younger than me and I always felt like he was "mine". My parents allowed me to take ownership in his rearing (which in hindsight, they always let me THINK I was making decisions, but they had already made the ultimate decisions. They were slick that way). My brother is one of those people that everyone is attracted to. He has a shining personality and makes everyone around him feel safe and secure and IMPORTANT. I'm glad that in 2009, he married the girl that would make him feel safe, secure and important.
I gained and lost weight in 2009. I was very successful with Weight Watchers, but wasn't consistent. I am hopeful that in 2010 I will not only take the weight off, but I will keep it off. I need to. I deserve it and so does my family. They need me. Healthy me.
I hope that 2010 brings all of my friends and family good health, prosperity and boundless blessings. Thanks for always leaving me encouraging words and comments and being great supporters and friends. Here's to 2010!
An All-American Girls' Trip
2 years ago