Friday, September 30, 2011

Jealous

I am, I know it's not the godly way to feel, but it's the truth.

This school year has been hard. No, it's been pure hell. I wish I could take a year off and stay home.

My students are precious. I still have the same old wonderful friends. My Principal is on my side. I can't describe why I feel this way. Perhaps it is that everytime I turn around my girlfriends are "doing lunch" and decorating their homes, shopping, and running carpool. That is the life I want.

It's Friday night. The two biggest schools in our town are battling it out on the football field on this glorious fall evening. I am crying in my beer. literally.

7 comments:

paige said...

sending hugs
darn if that grass isn't always greener. they've cut my hours at work ( in my department) and the lacking paycheck has been a real sad thing for me.
thinking of you & that cutiepie!!
friday night lights, have fun!

amazeingteacher said...

oh girl, I can so relate!! after 15 years of teaching, I am hating my job and hating myself for feeling this way! I want to stay home, blog, decorate, and homeschool molly in the future. but, that isn't in my future:( everything about education in my district is on my nerves! from the evaluations to the lesson plans, i'd love to walk out completely. but, then i think about it and try to slap myself back into reality! ha! if you find a solution, please let me know!

Sherri said...

I hope you are feeling better today.
Big hugs to you.....

Colleen said...

Oh Missy! I am sending you a big ol' heartfelt HUG from Washington! I've been there - exactly where you are. I totally get it that some moments you feel completely fulfilled with the great life you are leading, but other moments, it is painful because your life may not be following the path you dream of. My advice; don't give up. Cry a river and get it out of your system (as often as you like) and then hold your head up and go out and take charge. You can make your dreams come true. You can.

The baby is crying (another dream I had to worker harder at achieving than most of my friends), so I need to go, but I'm going to send you an email when I get the chance. Hugs my friend.

Sharon said...

Oh Missy! Many hugs to you. You are not alone in your thoughts.

Mireille said...

Aww... Missy!! I hope you feel better after a glorious weekend!! I know the feeling... but believe me sometimes people who do not work, wished they had a job because they are tired of doing the lunches...
Cheer up my friend, I am sure your feelings will change again!!

rgshrs said...

Oh Missy, sending you hugs and I know you have had better days since posting this, but I also know what an up and down, day to day thing, just feeling good about where you are and what you are doing can be. I'm on the opposite end of things, and there are a lot of days I would trade places with you. How cool would that be, if we could each find some how or someone to split our time with? Sigh, if only. As is, we enjoy the time we do have, are disappointed in the things in the things that we miss, and just in general try to make the best of it all. Don't feel bad, for feeling down girl. We are all entitled to those feelings. Wishing you many better days in your future. :)